Monday, June 27, 2005

Seize the Day

Around the corner I have a friend,
In this great city that has no end,
Yet the days go by and weeks rush on,
And before I know it, a year is gone.
And I never see my old friends face,
For life is a swift and terrible race,
He knows I like him just as well,
As in the days when I rang his bell.
And he rang mine but we were younger then
And now we are busy, tired men
Tired of playing a foolish game
Tired of trying to make a name
"Tomorrow" I say! "I will call on Jim
Just to show that I'm thinking of him
But tomorrow comes and tomorrow goes,
And distance between us grows and grows.
Around the corner, yet miles away,
"Here's a telegram sir," "Jim died today."
And that's what we get and deserve in the end.
Around the corner, a vanished friend.
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't be afraid to express yourself.
Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you.
Because when you decide that it is the right time it might
be too late.
Seize the day. Never have regrets.

~Unknown, I got it in an email

Friday, June 24, 2005

Taking a break

Im taking a break, im devoting all my creative talent to my novel so I won't be posting any poems for awhile. Although I might post one, im working on one and i might finish it, but it'll be awhile till I post another poem. If you're wondering about my novel i just started working on it and i have lots of work to do, though if you want to read some of it once i get the first few chapters done just ask. If you're also wondering what genre it is its going to be Medieval Fantasy, I like the fourteenth century and if you have a problem with it........BRING IT ON BEOTCH!

Tuesday, June 21, 2005


I shouldn't have thought I had a chance,
I shouldn't have given in, I should have said no.
I wouldn't be like this right now, if I had
I don't want you to feel guilty,
I don't want you to feel sorry,
I just want you to know,
I would have jumped off a bridge for you,
If you had asked I would of done anything.
Yet you can't help what you feel.
I just want you to know,
You crushed me.

~ Breezy


I stare as the birds come and go,
I wish I could just spread my wings and fly.
Just lift off the ground, leave the choices,
decisions and all the worries behind.
Just lay back on the clouds and drift,
never to return to the earth,
just float and be entirely happy for once.
But that'll never happen,
I'll never fly,
or drift,
or float.
I won't point a finger,
or say a name,
but you know who you are.
The person sitting on my wings.

~ Breezy (comment please)

Sunday, June 19, 2005

Bullets ~ Creed

Walking around I hear the earth seeking relief
I’m trying to find a reason to liveBut the mindless clutter my path
Oh these thorns in my side
I know I have something free
I have something so aliveI
think they shoot ‘cause they want it

I feel forces all around me
Come on raise your head
Those who hide behind the shadows
Live with all that’s dead

Look at me…look at me
At least look at me when you shoot a bullet
through my head
Through my head
Through my head
Through my head

In my lifetime when I’m disgraced
By jealousy and lies
I laugh aloud ‘cause my life
Has gotten inside someone else’s mind

Look at me…look at me
At least look at me when you shoot a bullet through my head
Through my head
Through my head
Through my head

Hey all I want is what’s real
Something I touch and can feel
I’ll hold it close and never let it go
Said why... why do we live life
With all this hate inside
I’ll give it away 'cause I don't want it no more
Please help me find a place
Somewhere far away I'll go and you’ll
never see me again.

Don't Stop Dancing ~ Creed

At times life is wicked and I just can’t see the light
A silver lining sometimes isn’t enough
To make some wrongs seem right
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way

Children don’t stop dancing
Believe you can fly

At times life’s unfair and you know it’s plain to see
Hey God I know I’m just a dot in this world
Have you forgot about me?
Whatever life brings
I’ve been through everything
And now I’m on my knees again

But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way
Am I hiding in the shadows?
Forget the pain and forget the sorrows
But I know I must go on
Although I hurt I must be strong
Because inside I know that many feel this way

Children don’t stop dancing
Believe you can flyAway…away

Am I hiding in the shadows?
Are we hiding in the shadows?

I don't know

I don't know what to do,
its all so confusing.
One minute you're easy to understand,
the next i can't understand a thing about you.
You said you wanted just to be friends,
now you want more.
Why make me so confused,
when all i can say is,
I don't know...


Friday, June 17, 2005


Ducks are happy
I am happy,
I wanna kiss a duck,
They are so cute.
their legs look like crutches,
and they like to fly,
i wanna fly,
Mommy can I fly?

This is one of my very few happy poems...guess when i wrote this...

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

I Want...

I want to let it all go and never have to feel this ever again,
I hate you all you make me want to kill my self
and never get up just to see that ugly sun every day.
I want to go to my world of black and belonging.
To see faces that show the look of "I am accepted" and will not be judge or pushed aside.
I want you all dead you caused this pain that breaths inside my chest,
It is so bad i can no longer hold it in
It wants out and to hurt you all.
Make you all go through the same misery I had to face.
I wake evey morining with the same look on my face
I had told you all loud and clear that i was never happy but
None of you took the time to listen or take a look.
You all want me just to sit there and not say a word and listen to these petty little problems. Well at least you all have some one to love you or care about you
Or at lest pretend i have nothing you all ignore me.
Never say a word or use a phone i hate you all i want you all dead to get away from me
And never come back.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Should I...?

She was my friend,
She was my ear,
She was the shoulder I leaned on.
That all changed,
when the Witch came around,
took her choice and refused the rest.
I was shoved away, insulted beyond measure
yet my 'friend' didn't do a thing,
she sat there,
laughed at the Witch's jokes,
looked away when she insulted me,
until I couldn't take it anymore.
I walked away.
And now my 'friend' wants forgiveness,
to come back,
to try to repair the damage,
yet its beyond repair.
She grabs her tape and glue,
yet i am beyond repair,
she tore me to pieces,
ripped out my heart,
and put it on display.
Yet she dares to ask for forgiveness,
Shall I dare give it to her....



I hate you because I met you and even became friends with you.
I hate you because when I actually got to know you, I started to like you.
And when I told you, you said you liked me too.
I hate you because we got together and got even closer.
I hate you because we found out that we loved each other.
And when I thought it was too good to be true,
I thought we were going to last and get it through.
Now I’ve told you why I hate you, now,
I just wanted to let you know,
I hate myself more for losing you.

~Mae-Belle Ombao


I dont close eyes now he might just attack
As I look to the front he may pounce on my back
oh no i can sense him, i can tell he is seeing
every move i make, i know he is beaming
laughing, plotting, i know what he wants
hes been after this, its blood that he wants
dark slits for eyes and a gash for a mouth
he might use my body for his next housemangled face,
yet features so clear draw a slight breath, but still he will hear
he'll draw from me life, i am his host, like a parasite, unnoticed by most
I dont let my guard down, not for a second
carelessness, to him i've just beckoned
he smells me and tastes me he feeds off my fear
miles away, so quick, now hes here
you may think im crazy, but you are just dumb
hey, he doesnt want you...i am the one.



You ripped my heart out,
Put it on display
for everyone to see.
I cried at night.
Did you know?
Did you care?
I cut my wrists.
You didn't care.
You didn't know.
I asked for kindness.
But you gave me only evilness.
Now I sit in a dark spot,
alone forever more.
I cry,
I cut,
I hurt,
I suffer.
I wish I could make it go away,
But I can't.
I suffer and feel the pain now
For the rest of eternity...



it started as a fling,
but then changed into something more,
3 hearts are now broken,
2 hearts now torn,
some tears fell,
and someone sighed,
wishing it was different,
as he looked into my eyes,
telling me it can't go on,
many mistakes were made,
saddness fell upon me,
guilt fell on him,
before there was a choice,
now there is none.


Once Again

Raindrops fallen like broken tears
Breaking the ground away.
Bleeding like pain threw out the years,
Again, life takes another way.

A crisom of an unwanted hope
That seeks the truest, begotten meaning.
Dwindling, twisted like a rope,
Dieing here, while night away, dreaming.

The meaning to feel alive
But only to feel dead.
The wanting to go and strive,
Not to be, from things said.

A horror that is only to be realized,
A mystery only to be found.
The pain and memories from your lies
As once again, life circles around.



I feel my heart pounding
I walk closer
I feel the knife in my hand
He’s only a few feet away
There is sweat dripping down his face
I feel my heart beating faster than I’ve ever felt it beat
I want to take this man's life
I want to scream
I want to run,
I want to ask what drove me to this
He’s so close right now that I can feel his breath on my face
I think about where to stab him
He knows what I'm going to do
I walk behind him
I close my eyes as I stab him in the heart
I can feel his pain
Blood is rushing over my hand
I’m getting light headed
He's bleeding to death
I let him fall to the concrete
As I walk away I hear him say something
I can’t hear him very well
But he said something about being sorry


Who cares?

Im feeling down today
And i cried last night I cant go on this way
but im to weak to but up
a fight.
I cant stand up im afraid...
of all of my fears..
I sit alone
today but who the hell cares?
I want to die today..but its not
ur problem. I have so many and
dont expect you to solve them
Even when it comes down on me
and is to much to bare. I slowly sink down...but who the hell cares?
if asked how im doing by people
when passed i say im doing just fine.
They dont care but why ask do people
love lying?Im just another empty soul
who's growing cold
that always goes without.
That walks around this fucking globe
who noone cares about


Bad Thoughts

I have bad thoughts,
thoughts i shouldnt be thinking.
i need help...
i think,im afraid to ask though.
i think about people,and hurting them.
different ways of killing,
and torturing without getting caught.
running every scenario,
checking all possible evidence.
i sometimes....
most of the time...
think,think about hurting myself
.i think that i must punish myself for thinking these thoughts.
i need to...
i want to...
i have to cut,
as a punishment and stress reliever.
i think these thoughts,
but refuse to act.
after thinking,
i think about who would be hurt if i hurt,
parents would miss them.
i couldnt do that to somebody,
its just not me.
im thinking these thoughts wherever,i
n a car,
at school,
i hate yet love thinking these thoughts.


His Kisses

all over me like a nail dropping in a mute room
or the silence of a funeral...
with nothing but a women crying
are his kisses
dragging me to this safe place in my sorry i must depart
for these kisses in which i crave..
ill be lying here in this grave with poision all over my lips.....
his kisses helped me live..
i long for them
i long for him to hold me tight every night in this misserable world....
im just a girl
and i need to be safe....
his kisses...
help me stay.....



As I proceed through my day
Through the ups and the downs
I talk to my friends
and to my enemies
My happiness flickers,
my sorrow hides,
my hatred is always shown
but what is truly alive
and always will be
is my rage
it gleams through my happiness
it gleams through my sorrow
my hatred infuses with my rage
making me all the madder
i stomp around
i hurt others,
physically and emotionally,
but i don't care, they should have known
the rage that lurks inside,
controls my actions,
makes me extreme
causes pain,
always and forever,
it will reign


He said...

he said he loved me....
he said without me he could live and couldnt be....
he said i love you but i love your friend more.......
he said i wanna close our door................
he said please dont be sad...........
he said i have things to say but i dont wanna add...
he said why cant you understand i dont want you...
he said i want your friend more.............
he said i love her............
he said i wanna open mine and her door........
he said bye, i hope your still friends with your friend after this..............
he said sorry but your not the one i miss.............
he said to the girl after he left her in the cold rainy darkness of the outside world........


Trust Me

you want to stay away
if your smart at all
please dont get in volved
i am your downfall
i am your saddest smile
your weakest alaby
the dead end of your miles
an envelope full of lies
your happy now, dont ruin that
it might be all you need
like a cheshire cat
off your confusion i feed
there one minute full
the next only a stripe
stand there baffled until
my stupid smile you swipe
the truth got you nowhere
until it was too late
maybe now you'll listen
i am not your fate
i am your recipricol
every image in your head of me
is fully fictional
dont let me ruin you
as i have ruined myself
put me back into my box
and slide me into my 6 foot shelf
walk away forget
it really is that easy
walk away close your eyes
its for the best
trust me


Pain of Love

If you really love someone
even though they might not love you anymore,
but the worst thing is that when you think about all the special times
you have spent with that someone
it brings you nothing but pain,
when you think about them not loving you back anymore.......



My blood boils with anger and passion
Because I try so hard to be your friend.
I promised I’d be there from the beginning to the end,
But I can’t stay here, like this, in this way
Because when I talk, you don’t hear me say
How much you mean to me,
But that I’m in the middle of misery.
From the start I’ve been wrong.
From the start I thought I was strong.
From my words, to my actions,
You’ve shown no reactions.
I’m here, but you don’t see me
You know I’m here, but you can’t reach me.
We’ve grown apart, and it’s hard to tell you,
That the person I once knew,
Can’t possibly be you.
You’ve changed, and you’ve grown,
But now it’s time for you to go on, on your own.
Don’t cry, don’t be sad
Please don’t turn away and get mad.
Don’t think it’s easy for me either,
Because without you I wouldn’t be here.
It’s not easy, it’s so very hard to do,
Because everything I’ve ever done, was for you.
You think this is a big deal,
But don’t worry it will heal.
You have so many other friends, just like me.
That will be there for you, just like me.
And what kind of friend would I be...
If I took all of you, just for me?


Love Me

I've done all I can.
I've said those three words.
I turn and I ran
Like a scared little bird.
You read that note,That note I wrote,
That one that I
Slipped in your coat.
I walked away
With more to say
That I couldn't get out
Even if I'd stayed.
You intimidate me
With your beautiful face.
You stole my heart
As it began to race.
But there's
More to touch, more to see,
More to taste, hear and feel
My words:
Love Me.



I had the knife, held my breath
should I choose life, should I choose death
I dropped it on the floor, screaming at myself
I ran for the door, thinking of something else
A specific person was on my mind
A very good person, that’s so very kind
I won’t say a name, or point a finger
But them a blame, for me being here
Without them, I’d be goneWithout them, I’d have done something wrong
I was in denial, I thought it would help
And for a while, it’s just how I felt.


Broken Wings

Walking away From what i know
Licking my wounds
Searching for a reason
To keep pushing my way through.
I must stay optimistic
I will not let myself fall
But like a broken lullaby
I feel worthless and insignificant.
Savaged heart and torn out love
Painting a picture seen in only my head
Trying to convey meaning
With no avail
But turning nothing into something
Isn't impossible.
I'll still sing to you
I'll still laugh with you
I'll still stand by you
And I'll still lean on you,
Because right now i have broken wings.



K, this is a bunch of poems either i wrote or came across. I will be sure to put the author at the bottom, don't worry I'm not a theif