Choose

What do you do when your life stands still
Where you can do nothing, no matter how great your will
When you turn around to look way back when
To time when you were happy again

To a time when your cares were far behind
And for you, misfortune was hard to find.
When you could give a sigh of relief
Because the last thing you ever gave thought to was grief

How does it look as you stare down the trail
That was filled with hopes that you’d think never fail
But now you have come to different place
Where happiness is naught but a scarce trace

Has the world turned its back upon you for no reason
Has the world committed an emotional treason
Why would such misfortune befall you so fast
And why wont the new good memories last?

Remember the times between you and I
How does it feel to move on and say bye?
It may be you don’t want to move onward on track
But you’re pushed on by others who wont let you back

Well I am still here, standing right in your sight
And I sure as hell wont stand here and give up the fight
I stood by through worse, and I wont give up now
I’ll fight tooth and nail and hopefully, somehow

I will eventually succeed, but I cant do it myself
I need you to take a firm stand and help
You have to defy what you no isn’t right
And I will agree with you each day and night

For I know that this is matters too much to me
To have it be removed completely, you see
So now is the chance, do you want to keep going
Into new wilderness, without help nor knowing

So now what happens, which way do you choose
Because no matter the choice, somebody will lose
But remember that road with the memories we’ve had
And I always was there, through good and through bad

And now when I need you more now than ever
Our friendship is tearing and soon will be severed
So now that you know that life isn’t going to wait
It wont wait for your lingering fears to abate

It’s going to continue so you must go on
But hopefully you’ll see what’s been there all along
What do you do when all you need is a friend
Well remember I'm here, and I will ‘til the end.

Because of you

Ice chills my heart making me stone
I blame you for all that I go through
If you had just controlled youself I would be fine
You still have yet to learn what happens

You're why I hurt, Why I am so empty
Why my head whispers insanity
I only wish for you to bear what I have
Only when you've felt everything disappear

Nothings left but anger fear and voices whispering
Because you had no control, Because you didn't learn
You have no idea what a mess you made
What you've caused, you just blame others

Because of you my head whispers insanity
Because of you, Because of you
Nothings the same, no more innocence
Because of you hell is on earth
Because of you my head whispers insanity
Because of you, Because of you...

~YBB~

Always and Never

Beaten. Broken. Black.
What is hurting can I ever live again
Always beaten no light no belief till I die
It'll never perish never disappear never depart
Until Im dead and gone Until I no longer feel

Heartbroken. Hopeless. Hurting.
When will I hope wish or believe
Always pushing no hope no faith till I die
It'll never lighten never disperse never leave
Until Im dead and gone Until I can no longer feel

Cold. Conquered. Crushed.
Why did it begin, why can't I remember
Always was no beginning no end till I die
It'll never cease never give up never merciful
Until Im dead and gone Until I can no longer feel

Destroyed. Demolished. Desecrated.
Who deserves this pain, this emptiness
Always did always will always till I die
It'll never stop never slow down never relent
Until Im dead and gone Until I can no longer feel

~YBB~

Some of us live life peaceful
Others take what they don't
Some of us live the high road
Others pay for the luxury
Some of us smile without thought
Others only smile when the worst has passed


Why is the world so divided?
Why must one person be higher?
Why do we all think wealth is a sign of integrity?
When those with wealth don't give a shit about us.
When they think we're worse then dirt,
When we didn't hurt others to gain luxury.
Why must people scorn others so they aren't?
Why are people so hurtful to those that are less blessed?


Some of us live life peaceful
Others take what they don't
Some of us live the high road
Others pay for the luxury
Some of us smile without thought
Others only smile when the worst has passed


Why are we judged by our heritage?
Why must new life be frowned upon?
Why is youth considered so insignificant?
When so much potential is inside.
Why are we urged to gain individuality,
When we are all herded together.
So they can decide whether we should be allowed a chance?
Why are we given so many false pretenses,
When we are so young, so malleable.


Some of us live life peaceful
Others take what they don't
Some of us live the high road
Others pay for the luxury
Some of us smile without thought
Others only smile when the worst has passed...


~YBB~
My first attempt at lyrics...

Lies

Everyday I see all you liars
Acting like you have such a bad life
All of you such accomplished actors
Claiming you actually use a knife

When the time comes for the truth
To finally be known you just lie again
Yet again showing your youth
When you fall, what then?

As your world falls to pieces
And you lose what you lied for
Then come all the dramas
Will you just lie some more?

I was once you then I fell
Lost the one thing I loved
Then finally I heard the bell
Then I finally got shoved

Finally I got a clue about my lies
What are they worth to you
When everything you hold dear dies
And you realize this is true?

I warned you and if you don't listen
I will laugh when you fall
By now you have chosen
If you will listen at all

But remember I was once you
Then it all fell and died
Remember this is true
Hopefully you will abide

~Breezy

I cried myself to sleep last night

Finally realizing you were right

I could never handle this

Missing everything possible to miss

I miss it all way too much

I am beginning to lose touch

He says I will never come back

Knowledge is what he lacks

He can not hold me here

Away from what I hold dear

I will escape this prison

Just wait till i make the decision

At first I hated it

Always fought the bit

Then I fond theatre

Now I will not deter

I promise you now

Today I make a vow

I will gain what I lack

I will come back

~Breezy

That first sight took my heart
Shot through me like a dart
The expanse of beautiful blue
Knowing you're always true

If only to see you again
Multiply the pain by ten
Most people never feel this
This eternal bliss

You are my only love
You are my dove
You are the ocean

~Breezy (excuse the briefness)

I feel so lost

Can't handle the cost

Closer comes insanity

Losing the tranquility

I can clearly remember

It all started in december

Somebody said the wrong thing

I wish I could stop being

I want to dissappear

Not have anyone be near

Just let go and fall

Be able to forget it all

I hold onto the ledge

Almost over the edge

Staring into that dark well

Where insanity and I will dwell

I shouldn't have spoken

Then that edge wouldn't beckon

I didn't see any other way

What else could I say?

~Breezy

Im on the verge of falling

What I will do theres no telling

If you take me away

I will die that day

I won't let you do anymore

I am already so sore

If you even dare to try

I will only sigh

And say this is the day

Im going to make you pay

I will only stare and snicker

As I pull that trigger

No one will be able to stop me

You just wait and see

I will make you bleed

Don't start what you can't lead

~Breezy

Everyday you see me
Not knowing what has come to be
Those of you who know
Seeing I had lost my glow

I act like nothing is wrong
Acting so headstrong
You never see the real me
The one that hates to be

I hide the self that wants to cry
The one that can only deny
That anything is up
All these emotions are going to erupt

Yet I hold it together
I can hardly bear
To go to school
I use it as a rule

Nobody ever sees
When I break my boundries
When I can't hold it back
When I can't keep track

I can't keep it together
My sanity has become looser
I can't keep hold of reality
Im inching towards insanity

Yet sometimes I feel
It'd be easier to deal
If I was surrounded by rubber walls
Stuck in mindless thrall

~Breezy

As my days on holiday shorten

My thoughts continue to darken

They turn to what I must face

I cannot keep pace

I wish not to go back

Courage is what I lack

I do not wish to tell you passed

How I was harassed

Yet mother I must

For you I trust

I know you love him

But the truth is dim

You must know it

As I fight the bit

I know I must tell you

What is true

That your love did something

That I would wish on no other human being

He did not do the worst

Yet my bubble he did burst

I could never hate him

I am not that dim

But I must finally tell

I hope you won't yell

Those moments I never hoped to relive

He held me captive

In heart and mind I am hurt

But I do not wish for comfort

I just wanted it to dissapear

Those thoughts never to come near

Yet everynight I can't sleep

Fearing what will creep

Into my dreams and haunt me

I just wanted to be left be

~Breezy

Images on the edges of my vision
Clarity my only mission
I don't know why I did this
I offer you no bliss
I had to see if it would work
I can't see through this murk
I do not know what my future is
But I like the word tis

~Breezy (just ramblings, running out of inspiration)

You may push me around

But you cannot win

You may throw me down

But I'll rise again

The more you say

The more I defy you

So get out of my face

You cannot stop us

You cannot bring us down

Never give up

We go on and on

You'll never break us

Never bring us down

We are alive!

The wind blows

I'll lean into the wind

My anger grows

I'll use it to win

The more you say

The more I defy you

So get out of my way

All my will

All my strength

Rip it out

Start again

You cannot stop us
You cannot bring us down
Never give up
We go on and on
You'll never break us
Never bring us down
We are alive!

Can you leave it all behind?

Can you leave it all behind?

Cause you can't go back

You can't go back

~The Offspring

As I watched those people walk by

In my thoughts I could not lie

I had never felt this lost

I had forgotten the final cost

Of leading on this life

Of never finishing that strife

Yet here I stand, untouched

My heart so valiantly clutched

I hadn't thought of the consequence

Of the sequence of events

The heartache such thoughts would cause

Only now do I pause

After what will be done is planned

Thoughts so grand

Yet now that it shall finally happen

Maybe its just fiction

All these plans and thoughts

Could be imaginary slipknots

Yet how do I know

Im not at a low

Yet completely oblivious

To the obvious

That were I am lain

I am completely insane

~Breezy

I will not lie

All I wanted was to die

Now I have realized

I was immobilized

For I never knew to love

Until I met you my dove

I used to do things you never knew

You never knew who I slew

Now my only wish is to live

Hopefully you will forgive

My temporary lapse in judgement

And when my heart was absent

Because I owe my life to you

Hopefully I will always be true

~Breezy

I Swear

The wind is whispering
The rising moon
Puts a spell on my heart
Under stars-twinkling high above
When i close my eyes
We're dancin' into the flame
I won't spend
Finally comes time to decide
Stuck here in the same old bind
Ill be there
By the moon and the stars in the sky
Like a shadow that's by your side
I swear

I want to tell you yes
But I am such a mess
I hold you dear
But I just can't let you near
For fear I'll hurt you
That I couldn't be true
I am so confused
I feel so used
I know everyday the pain gets worse
I've gone through that course
But I just can't bring myself
To take you off your shelf
I truly want to give what you wish
But I don't want to be selfish
And hurt you as badly as I fear
I cannot let you near
Because thats the only result of this alliance
So I shall, for now, keep my distance

~Breezy

I feel so lost
I forgot the cost
Of living this life
Of solving this strife
I thought I wouldn't be caught
I thought I had been taught
Never to become confused
Always know what needed to be used
To never lose track of the goal
Never let battle take its toll
I was taught to never be found
Yet here I lie on the ground
Your sword upon my throat
I had been taught to never gloat
Yet I couldn't resist
Gave into the deadly tempest
Let information leak
Gave it a little tweak
Yet still you hesitated
Knowing I had been blooded
Because you had let emotions factor
Let me pierce your armor
Now i had you in my web
Knowing you were dead
Only a fraction of a second
Passed before I embedded
My knife hilt deep
The blood began to seep
As you fell into the snow
Nobody shall know
That it is I who did it
It is I who threw the hit
I killed you
I was never true
Yet in killing you
I killed myself

~Breezy

In this cage I stay
Never a thought to say
I can never leave
This burden I heave
I will never be free
For I want to be left be
I can not stand alone
But none is known
Who could lift this weight
It is to late
For me to be free
I shall be caged for eternity
This you an not change
I am out of range
No longer shall I bother
Of this I am sure

~Breezy (no idea where this came from...)

I trusted you
Then this you do
For a first I am scared
I feel so impaired
I can't even sleep
Afraid you will creep
Into my room you will come
And I will become a victim
I fear to fall into sleep to deep
For I fear you shall leap
And take my innocence
Remove my essence
I shall become a hollow shell
Nothing more to tell
You have become my first fear
For you have made my life unclear

~Breezy