Reason

[Slow, echoing intro]
(What do you do)
When you get everything you've ever wanted
(What do you do)
When everything fits into place
(what do you do)
When you have what you've always wanted

And you lose it (lose it)(lose it)
What do you do when your love
Isn't enough to make her stay?
Do you just watch her walk away?
(walk away)[fade]

[Screaming]
How do you just let her walk away
Taking everything you had left
[soft]Feeling everything give way

[Loud]
Give me one god damn reason
to keep on believing
to keep on trying
to keep on breathing
Just one god damn reason!

What do you do
when you gave all you had
And it wasn't enough?

What do you do
if she was your world
and her love was just a bluff?

Give me one reason to keep on believing
Give me one reason to keep on trying
Give me one reason to keep on living
Give me one god damn reason!
[slow quiet]
How do you just let her walk away
Taking everything you had left
Feeling everything give way[fade]

Whats kept me going lately

they're in order of how the last few weeks have gone and how i've changed so yeah
Blood to Bleed - Rise Against
Learning to Breathe - Switchfoot
I'm Still Here - Vertical Horizon
I Hate Everything About You - Three Days Grace
Break My Fall - Breaking Benjamin
Always - Saliva
Gone Forever - Three Days Grace

These ones just give me a little strength.

Empty Promises - Papa Roach
Concrete Angel - Martina McBride
Broken Home - Papa Roach
One Last Breath - Creed

if i think of any others ill post them
listen to those if you wanna understand
who i am right now

Now of course a poem =]
Tell me what you thinky


I loved you heart and soul
Never knew the ending toll
I thought our love was forever
But now I regret my endeavor

I have never felt this cold before
It was my very being that you tore
I have no clue where to go what to feel
I can't hold myself together to begin to deal

My friends and those I left to rot
This is the tragedy that I bought
You all supported me and saw this through
All that you said made me realize what to do

Getting back to normal was a task
Help was needed but never could I ask
Lifted myself back up and stood
Managed what strength I could

Saved by an angel hidden by grief
All I needed was his stone hard belief
The life I owe to him is the my own
Never again will I ever be so alone

They were all right and I was wrong
I don't need you all I need is song
Stronger still I don't need anyone
Now I see I have just begun

<3 Revelin [Brya]

Hope

Still hurting, everynight crying myself to sleep
Hope emerges, and we're in it together, deep
Everyone saying just to move on and stop crying
That I never loved him I'm just lying

Adrift in a dark sea nowhere to go nowhere to turn
Hoping to god that numbness makes a return
Only six months to bear until I might be free
To move on and live, to truly enjoy to be

On the distant horizon of year's end
I see my haven, someone love might send
But can I last until the day I leave
Maybe possibly I just need to believe

Brya
Idk where it came from but there it is.

New Drawing

It started with just getting tipsy
Then open the bag lets have a looksy
Smokin the green
A whole new scene
Breathe in deep then pass the pipe
Really doesn't stand up to all the hype
Change the song
Pass the bong
Lay back count the dots in the sky
No one keeping track of the time passin by
Oh shit got the munchies
Chips are all the crunchies
Just one more hit then I'm done

Poppin pills everything spinnin again
Hitting anything to numb the pain
New night New Fight
Doing everything in sight

Now on to the medication
Depressents and the stimulation
Nyquil Tylenol
Seen them all
PCP got your legs all jelly
Sit look whats on the telly
Rip em open
Counting again
Its adding up now all the pills
Not keeping with the usual thrills
Add a dose
Up your nose

Poppin pills everything spinnin again
Hitting anything to numb the pain
New night New Fight
Doing everything in sight

Now its getting all hardcore
Losing cash gotta get some more
Now your sure
Got the pure
Coke Crack got thewhite stuff
One gram two gram it ain't enough
Tweakin out
Gotta shout
Line after line have 'em all straight
Razorblade on glass a sound to hate
More to hit
8balls the shit
Just one more line then I'm done

Poppin pills everything spinnin again
Hitting anything to numb the pain
New night New Fight
Doing everything in sight

Now its getting serious cash flow
Dropping acid everything going slow
Drip Drip
Drop
Hallucinating blue cows chewing your toes
The walls are closing in no one knows
Sounds loud
Bleeding cloud
Moving cars going in another lane
Wanna touchy I'm slowly going insane
Desperation
Drug nation

Poppin pills everything spinnin again
Hitting anything to numb the pain
New night New Fight
Doing everything in sight

Had it with all the come downs
One last high then no more frowns
Take it all
No one to call
One last word to any who care to look
Writing messy, barely legible, hands shook
Only one bridge
On the ledge
Cars passing below noises are unbearable
The trip here long complicated understandable
Lean forward
Move toward
The cars are closing in yellow lines visible
The world is cold and painful barely liveble
Nothing said
Now I'm dead


Brya

Everything Has Gone Away

What to do, nothing to say
Everything has gone away
Nothing left to do but hope
Someone doesn't pull the rope

Stuck inside nowhere to turn
Never had the chance to learn
Black and white now muddled gray
Who knew the price one would pay

Choices flying by no time to decide
Everything connected Everything tied
No one to run too nowhere to hide
Now nobody is there by your side

Scared of the future Scared to die
Couldn't take it Couldn't cry
Gave in Gave up Too much to take
Now only one decision left to make

Black or White Life or Death
Whether or not to take another breath
Nothing to do What to say
Everything has gone away

♥ Brya ♥

Real Me

Theres too much to say in so
LITTLE TIME
It may already too late to
SAVE ME
Questions gone unanswered have me
LOST
Of my stubborn uniqueness
VICTIM
I may be as the real me is seen
NEVER
Forget my words precious to only
YOU

Assimilation and Conformity were never
MY THING
Its you choice to be a worthless
CLONE
I can't be who you want me
TO BE
Accept or Reject and see the real me
FRIEND

Both of you want me to become
YOU
Its obvious I am the complete
OPPOSITE
I cant be who you want me
TO BE
So just accept me and see the real me
SISTERS

You don't care about my
LIFE
Until it disrupts your humble
PERFECTION
The good is never seen only the
FUCK UPS
I can't be who you want me
TO BE
So look harder and see the real me
FATHER

You hide things to keep me
PROTECTED
What I need is to know the
TRUTH
Of who you really believe and
TRUST
I can't be who you want me

TO BE

So let go and see the real me
MOTHER

Never did you accept me
AS IS
Always trying to change who
I AM
Its up to you what happens
NOW
I can't be who you want me
TO BE
So decide and see the real me
LOVE

So many of you pulling trying to
CHANGE ME
I already chose who I want
TO BECOME
You have no clue as to who
YOU ARE
So you try to make me something
LIKE YOU
That you might find a clue as to what
DIRECTION
You need to go to find
YOURSELF
I can't be someone to control like a
PUPPET
Stop trying to change the
REAL ME

~*The Lady Sinner*~